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Name: BiAnCa a.k.a MiSs ShOwRt
Birthday: 5/30/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: KiCkiN iT wiD maH bOi aN FreNds, eAtin, sLeEpiN, gOin oUt, MoVieS, pretty much anytin dat keeps me from bein bored.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  ooxshortay23xoo
Member Since:
8/8/2003
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| you know i never noticed how much my family struggles... i mean i never thought that reality would finally hit.. i mean we stare and live our own lives to how we want it to be and how we think it should be but we don't stop to look around and think that there are more important ppl in this world besides ourselves.... my aunt is close to dying from cancer and i come close to crying everytime i hear of her or think of what shes going through... my mom just came back today from visiting her in new jersey and we just finished praying the rosary too.. my mom pulled me aside after a while and she gave me one of those serious talks.. u kno i thot i was in trouble but for once i wasn't lol... well she talked to me about how my cuzins who are already 26 and i think 20 somethin.. don't do anything for their mom... i mean its obvious that ur ma is dyin and that ur dad is tired from stressin an doin all he can to keep her alive an yet they cant even do a simple thing like cleanin up the house... i never noticed how selfish they could be... my mom talked to me about how she didn't want me endin up like that but i mean its kinda hard to not think of yourself first... but i always have helped out... others at least... i do things without being told when im around other ppl like family too and i do my best to make things easier when i see there's much goin on.. but i never stopped to think that when im here at home.. ive never realli done anything to help out my mom.. at least do it without being told yah kno... its hard to change who u are and its not the easiest thing to give up whut u love doin the most so u can help out every once in a while... as much as i realize the things that i do.. its still hard for me to help out... i still get worried about goin out and relaxin an bein a teenager... but sumtimes it juss time to grow up... im not sayin imma grow up rite now.. but it will take time an the firs step to doin so... is to realize what you're doin or not doin.... u kno my ma told me that yah im already 17 an soon ill be 18.. an she asked me.. if she were to die.. who would take care of me an my sister.. since ill be 18... i kinda have full responsibilities for my sis yah kno.. an it was actually a hard dicission... i thot u kno maybe ill give her to her dad so he can take care of her while i try to make a livin first... but at the same time theres so many stories of older siblings makin a life for their family juss so they can stay together... all that made me realize that yah i am almost an adult an i need to start makin changes that will allow me to become more responsible and be able to mature... as of now im still thinkin that i still have a lot more years to go as a teenager an ill be partyin for a long time.. but u kno... im already almos an adult an i cant live my life like those cuzins of mine that only take responsibilities for themselves... welps its time for changes... and hopefully its easier than it sounds... welps gotta go to sleep now.. bye | | |
| you know i never noticed how much my family struggles... i mean i never thought that reality would finally hit.. i mean we stare and live our own lives to how we want it to be and how we think it should be but we don't stop to look around and think that there are more important ppl in this world besides ourselves.... my aunt is close to dying from cancer and i come close to crying everytime i hear of her or think of what shes going through... my mom just came back today from visiting her in new jersey and we just finished praying the rosary too.. my mom pulled me aside after a while and she gave me one of those serious talks.. u kno i thot i was in trouble but for once i wasn't lol... well she talked to me about how my cuzins who are already 26 and i think 20 somethin.. don't do anything for their mom... i mean its obvious that ur ma is dyin and that ur dad is tired from stressin an doin all he can to keep her alive an yet they cant even do a simple thing like cleanin up the house... i never noticed how selfish they could be... my mom talked to me about how she didn't want me endin up like that but i mean its kinda hard to not think of yourself first... but i always have helped out... others at least... i do things without being told when im around other ppl like family too and i do my best to make things easier when i see there's much goin on.. but i never stopped to think that when im here at home.. ive never realli done anything to help out my mom.. at least do it without being told yah kno... its hard to change who u are and its not the easiest thing to give up whut u love doin the most so u can help out every once in a while... as much as i realize the things that i do.. its still hard for me to help out... i still get worried about goin out and relaxin an bein a teenager... but sumtimes it juss time to grow up... im not sayin imma grow up rite now.. but it will take time an the firs step to doin so... is to realize what you're doin or not doin.... u kno my ma told me that yah im already 17 an soon ill be 18.. an she asked me.. if she were to die.. who would take care of me an my sister.. since ill be 18... i kinda have full responsibilities for my sis yah kno.. an it was actually a hard dicission... i thot u kno maybe ill give her to her dad so he can take care of her while i try to make a livin first... but at the same time theres so many stories of older siblings makin a life for their family juss so they can stay together... all that made me realize that yah i am almost an adult an i need to start makin changes that will allow me to become more responsible and be able to mature... as of now im still thinkin that i still have a lot more years to go as a teenager an ill be partyin for a long time.. but u kno... im already almos an adult an i cant live my life like those cuzins of mine that only take responsibilities for themselves... welps its time for changes... and hopefully its easier than it sounds... welps gotta go to sleep now.. bye | | |
| deng i havent written in a long ass while!! so yah everytins been good.. juss got over the flu... lol im still recoverin but hey at least i can breathe now lol... sucks for my boi tho cuz he got it now... so hey there everyone...
FRIDAY: hung out with ceejay, daniel, tayler, and garcia for a bit.. and i sinned... i ate meat. lol cuz u know its lent an im not allowed to eat meat on fridays til easter but it was so hard.. i mean we were all at mcdonalds lol... but yah after that i juss went home an slept like the whole damn time.
SATURDAY: i watched a movie with my ma an sis.. we watched The Pacifier it was actually pretty funny and hey Vin Diesel is so fukin foine.. i don care if hes gay!!! lol an then we ate lunch at Taxi's an then we went to Hillsdale an did a lil shoppin.. sso yah...
TODAY: welps me an my ma went to church at like 11:30 an then we ate lunch at a filipino place.. hella good lol an then we went shoppin.. my mom only gave me a hundred bucks to go spring shoppin but hey i actually bot a lot than i thot i could afford lol... so yah.. then we juss went shoppin sum more an then came home... so yah hella fun.. ight welps thats all for now.. rite bak later!!! bye.... | | |
| welps martin came over on sunday.. and it was so much fun haha.. i swear me an him are like lil kids haha.. we watched mulan cuz u kno ive been wantin to watch it gain for a bit hahaha.. an we sumwhut sang along haha i hella wanted too but i was too scurred haha.. but yah welps after that i ate cuz he didn want to an then we juss chillaxed... hes so cute haha.. but yah we made it oficial on sunday!! me an him are together now... so yah.. tins strted off a lil weird for me at least but now its all great... got to spend time with him after skoo. yah kno.. so yah... man i couldn help myself with my mexican jokes again haha.. so i kept makin them so he looked at me an then called me chinese haha.. it was hella mean but funny.. cuz he didn kno whut else to say lol so we juss strted laffin but hey that hurts my feelins cuz i aint chinese.. lol im Filipino goshers get it rite.. haha but yah... its all good in the hood. welps gotsta go pplz... !!!! | | |
| welps last wednseday we got out of skoo hella early cuz we had no electricity.. so we got out at around 1130am... hella fun lol.. so i decided i was juss gon go to the movies with sum frends an not tell my mom i went an juss meet her back at skoo at 315 cuz i had an appt with my counselor at that time... but it turned out he had already called my mom to tell her we got out early an that the meetin was cancelled so my mom waited for me to call but i never did lol so when i did i was in hella trubble.. but hey i tink it was wrth it!! cuz that day, me, martin, jessica, tyrone, daniel, p.j, tanti, and travis went to the movies and watched white noise.. i swear Martin is so fukin foine haha.. so he sat next to me cuz me an him shared a drink an all.. so yahh an then i was scurred do i was coverin my face so martin tried to make sure i didn an i don kno whut happen cuz nex tin u kno my head was on his shoulder an we were holding hands lol... hes so fukin fine.. an then we went to burger king an he bot me onion rings haha.. an after we were walkin to the bart station an he held my hand awww... an yah we were holdin hands like the whole time.. an when we were waitin for the bus he asked me if i ws cold an i sed yes so he put his arm around me an strted rubbin my arm to make me warm an all... hehe.. an then the next day he took the bus with us an he waited with us at san bruno ave before he went home an we held hands an when the bus cam he kissed me lol he was aimin for my lips but he kinda ended up kissin my bottom lip an chin haha... but it was still hella cute.. then on friday he met me up in the mornin an we kissed on the lips haha...an at lunch he stayed with me an my frends... aww hes so cute.. i mean i guess we aint goin out yet but we're takin an yah... juss don want thins to move too fast yah kno.. but yah hes so perfect an this comin up friday we made a plan on goin to frisco an we gon go ice skatin an then eat an metreon an all dat good stuff.. whut a cute firs date lol... hes so damn sweet.. but yah... das basically whuts new.. lol juss him... so yah welpsill write later on.. payce | | |
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